Strangelove

Today is grey and overcast, its been raining a lot where i live. in fact the dam up the road is spilling over, hasn't done that for years, and its capacity has just been made bigger. I like the fact that its rained a lot, we were on the verge of water restrictions. But when it rains nonstop for weeks on end, it can get a bit depressing.

I'm feeling bleak like the weather today. This weekend gone, I went to go and visit a guy I've been "seeing" since November. I live far away enough for me to have to fly to him. I go expecting to have a great weekend with him, he has been encouraging me, I met him half way in terms of the relationship, did not come across as desperate (which I'm not), only to be told "the spark has gone" and he doesn't want to do the whole long distance thing. But if/when I move, he will be "prepared to try". I dont think I am prepared to try.